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27-01-2017 09:28 PM
27-01-2017 09:28 PM
When do you give up?
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27-01-2017 11:11 PM
27-01-2017 11:11 PM
Re: When do you give up?
Hi WTFIGO
Lola here, one of the moderators.
Welcome to the Sane Forums. I’m really sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you at the moment. You have summed up your feelings really well 'Lost broke confused lonely sad'
You have shown a lot of strength in coming to the forum and seeking help. You will find that there is a lot of wisdom and kindness among the forum members here and I am sure you will get some replies soon.
Are you safe tonight? Do you have someone you can speak to right now? (aside from this forum?)
If not, we know some really helpful services. Unfortunately we are not a crisis service, but some places you can call now for support are;
Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat
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Once again welcome! The forum is wonderful way of connecting with others.
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I look forward to seeing future posts from you.
Regards
lola
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28-01-2017 12:47 PM
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Re: When do you give up?
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28-01-2017 01:22 PM
28-01-2017 01:22 PM
Re: When do you give up?
I feel like lashing out but don't want to ruin it so I'm sitting here in misery 😕
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28-01-2017 01:26 PM
28-01-2017 01:26 PM
Re: When do you give up?
You are dealing with a great deal @WTFIGO.
It is natural to feel angry, and exhausted and confused about the future directions your life will take.
I appreciate your decision to both acknowledge and manage your anger. The world is a better place for it.
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28-01-2017 01:40 PM - edited 28-01-2017 01:48 PM
28-01-2017 01:40 PM - edited 28-01-2017 01:48 PM
Re: When do you give up?
Hello @WTFIGO
When do we give up - never? In regards to the relationship with your wife the best guide is your heart. Listen to it and follow.
I noted with interest that you have a son suffering autism. How bad is his condition? From what I have been told the stress of raising a child with such a disability is horrendous. And your wife may not be coping with it - hence why she improves when she goes out to work. And is leaving you with the nurturing of him. I think you may find this to be one of the reasons for her depression and escapism from the marriage - have either of you ever spoken about this? Do you receive any outside help?
Ofcourse this is not your son's fault. Some people have a greater capacity to love and cope if their childhoods were good. Perhaps your wife's wasn't? I can relate. If that is the case whether she admits it or not she needs you. The stress is what she may be escaping from. Is that fair on you - no. Do you have needs too - yes. Seek support for yourself, please look after you too. I think couples counselling may be an idea if she is willing.
It may not be the whole picture but for me from the information the above stressors may need a closer look at discussing. It's admirable how you are there for your son and the unconditional love you have for your family. It will pay off in the long run my friend - don't give up.
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28-01-2017 02:32 PM
28-01-2017 02:32 PM
Re: When do you give up?
I don't ever want to give up but the disconnected looks she gives me now are destroying me. I can't move out without a job and here I go back into the circle of problems. I have 2 places I could stay for free and unlimited however they are isolated and I'd be in the middle of nowhere alone sad etc with no mobile service and then I'd still have an hours drive after she gets home from work etc.
The more I'm talking the more I'm getting drawn 50/50 to just give up but the hopeless romantic in me says hang in there hud stranger things have happened
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28-01-2017 02:53 PM
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28-01-2017 05:13 PM - edited 28-01-2017 05:18 PM
28-01-2017 05:13 PM - edited 28-01-2017 05:18 PM
Re: When do you give up?
I agree with everything g @pip said. Bearing in mind the biggest victim here is your son (regardless if not biological he sees you as that). He is the most helpless one whose welfare is the priority. And your wife needs to be made aware of this and seek help if not for this reason alone. Appeal to her motherhood. She knows what it feels like to be let down - point out that is what she is doing to her son by her unwillingness to seek help and by running away from her parental responsibilities.
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28-01-2017 05:34 PM
28-01-2017 05:34 PM
Re: When do you give up?
1. She just doesn't love me anymore, she sees me as the core of her problems and the grass is greener bla bla bla, I can't make her love me so I should just cop it on the chin and move on
2. She has sunk into depression over the last 18 months lying in bed all day everyday watching movies and eating and putting on weight ( the weight doesn't bother me at all but it compounds her sadness) Through this slump she sees what she is doing to me, and knows it's not fair, but rather than face the demons she had it'll be easier to add another failure to the pile she has under the rug and just lose me and not have to get any help. We bought our son a journal and the first entry in it is " mummy is yelling at me again" she doesn't see how bad that is. She has the biggest heart in the world when she's good but her bad times are fast overtaking the good. I actually convinced myself that it wasn't just me because of how short she is with everything , our son, the animals, even a Tupperware container she can't find the lid for.
When I say this I believe in my heart she is disconnected from her heart and soul and her conscious mind is in panic mode to keep all the sub conscious at bay, anything challenging her thoughts or emotions is being shunned and she is putting on a tough face and telling the world she is fine.
I told her I wanted to be the one constant in her life that will never give up or quit on her and she will always know I was the one who never let her down, this was when she was calling the separation and she cried a bit but since then cold detachment. She has told me she feels nothing for me at all, she also said that she can't afford to let her emotions in or she will lose her shit!
Man it's just a mess 😕