Thanks for connecting to the forum Tanker. It can be a good place to interact and tap into the experiences and wisdom of the members. You're having a rough night. Things are often quiet here overnight but Im sure people will respond a little later.
I am not sure i can help that's why i haven't replied. I know that i fear connecting with people. I can only say strategies that have helped for me. I have found listening to eckhart tolle helps ease the mind on the internet. I bought his music and found one song really helps calm the mind. Every night i listen to a body scan meditation to prepare you for sleep on the smiling minds app. If it helps to think about the thought process.
I hope you can find ways that work for you to stop thinking about it. If it helps to talk about it here.
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