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Hugs @Anastasia
Resilience develops as we encounter tough issues in life and learn that we have overcome them in the past and this trait grows - it's not easy though.
About our sons - yes - you might lose yours - that's true of everyone - I read somewhere that our children are hostages of fate - it's a painful truth. It is so hard rearing a troubled child. It seems nothing goes right for some people - and with children - teenagers - I don't they perceive they cause a lot of their troubles for themselves. Some of them don't grow past it - some of them can't grow past it.
And as their mothers we suffer -
I don't know where resilience starts - I think in childhood - mine was interesting but in my adult life I have wondered why my parents had more than one child - that would be me. Perhaps they had no choice - sometimes kids just arrive - or they did then. I was so thrilled when my parents told us they were having another child - my brother and I were at school - and I was thrilled when the baby was a girl but I learned. The Baby Boomer reality - life was easier after the war and my sister was spoiled and even in childhood she made life hard for me and in adult life she betrayed me - being betrayed is so hard Anastasia - it had to stop and yet every so often my sister pecks to get back into my life and I am not having anymore - I can hardly believe she is 70 in a few weeks and she still behaves the way she does. Enough said
I understand about feeling tense about your son coming home next week. A feeling of impending doom - I understand that. I would jump when the phone rang - so often it was the police or someone hardly able to wait to tell me what my son was up to - and what could I do about it? - if I went out to find him he would be doing something else. It is so hard - and you can only go from day to day with this - face the bad moments while you feel as if you need to walk on water and bless the days that pass with only a few ruffles on that same water. I do know - I live with the shadows in my past but they no longer disturb me. I don't know how you cope with it going on today -
But I do know - yes - I do.
But what can I say to make it easier? You are living on the edge and I know that only too well
My best thoughts Anastasia - sending my courage somehow - maybe I can find a courageous owl
Dec
Thanks Em - an evening watching TV with blankies sounds pretty good - it's pretty chilly in Melbourne atm. I have got drinking chocolate and marshmallows handy this weekend
I have been thinking about you - I know it's a difficult time - and moreso now with your husband's family locked down in Perth. I heard about this on the news a few minutes ago. This is definitely something rough to endure at such a sorrowful time. It a situation that is increased through the rules necessary during a pandemic
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Through the lockdown between states and countries I have been concerned about my elderly, elderly relatives and my son-in-law has been concerned about his mother in New Zealand. I try to be philosophical - snap lock-downs mean toilet paper shortages for some obscure reason I can't fathom - seeing there was a lot of toilet paper in the supermarket I bought some extra just in case - now is the time to get our panic buying out of the way when there is no emergency - and I do believe that there is none so queer as folks - as my English grandmother used to say
You are doing so well keeping us informed about how you are going during such a sensitive time in your life - I understand how difficult it is to keep caring ourselves during such a time. To save myself bothering too much about cooking with the flare-up in my shoulder I got a cooked-chook yesterday and that will keep me going for a couple of days and when the shoulder settles I can make a stew with some diced steak I have frozen for now - I have learned a lot of ways to keep kitchen work easy when my shoulder plays up
All the best Em - I have been reading your thread even though I haven't posted much lately
Dec
