Oh @MDT
My heart goes out to you. I'm sorry I've been at work and then running around to the chemist and doctors and then just got a chance to reply now.
I am truly sorry you feel this way. I'm not sure whether you will get to see your psych. But if you ever need to chat, you know that there are a lot of people on here willing to listen. I don't exactly know whether you want advice or a shoulder or an ear? But I can truly relate to how you are feeling.
if you like, you can read my story, but you don't have to!
i have been a health professional for more than 10 years and it always sets me back and upsets me when I see way younger colleagues doing things that I can't. So I think 'why am I so dumb? Why am I so slow? Why why why?'
so that takes me to a dark place.
But I don't know what it is, something brings me back to a neutral place where I can see things in a different light. It really doesn't matter where I am because everyone runs their race at a different pace. And for that matter, it's not really a race. When I look at my kids, I realise this more. Each child walks at a different age, talks and understands at a different age. So how are we any different? You wouldn't make a child feel bad, so why would we be so hard on ourselves. I don't know what you are referring to when you say you're 2 years behind?
my other point is this : the world is better with you in it. And I truly mean that. You have reached out to a new forumite in me, and I hope to continue our chats.
please stay.
