Lacking direction, unsure of what I need to do and generally just fed up.......

[Sophia1]

hello @MDT @TAB @BlueBay @Former-Member @eth 

@MDT 

not sure where you are working at present...government? federal government?...yes been there and done that...depressing especially with all of the dinosaurs about..

hearing you all..

I feel as though someone has emptied something over the top of me and it is all weighing me down.

bizarre

tis the dreaded tentacles of depression

too much negative energy has been present in people I have been around

I have absorbed that negative energy as I do..

Yesterday felt like you have mentioned...blech...so did nothing other than necessary..

then watched netflix...

cooked an amazing curry after though..no walk

today could not get out of bed until 11am--did necessary..no walk again...

have spent far too long on here..now

I have chosen to avoid listening to the social media...

listening to the financial markets drop

going to a supermarket where there are empty shelves..

mass panic

not mass anxiety

just panic and sheer stupidity..

File 13 haven't heard of that one @TAB  cheshire cat..

know the one walk around quickly, with an empty file under your arm with an air of importance..don't forget the pen..

 tomorrow have to go out so will get me out of the house..

For me getting out of the house is the turnaround not always mood turnaround...just different place to experience mood in

daylight saving ending end of this month?

hope that I did not add to everyone's doom and gloom..

just ignore if makes you feel worse..

[Former-Member]

Sorry to hear that, I hope you hear from your Psych soon. How did you contact them if you don't mind me asking, by phone or? @MDT 

[TAB]

I went out briefly wish didn't felt like was in a gas cloud or something just on edge
Yeah @mohill who used to be on here said re folder , know people who have done it for real @Sophia1

[MDT]

Email @musicfan_x

Only had email as he practises privately now. He gets a better cut from his rate if he practises on his own.

I'm happy with that. He's a good psych

[MDT]

Indeed @Sophia1
It's a bad time in life generally atm

[MDT]

I believe part of my problem atm is that I am 2 years behind where I could or shouod be.

It's hard not hear that in a bad way. Even though my parents said it was no issue. It still plagues my mind.

I used to not care. I think I still don't. But i think that my job atm has me thinking otherwise. Just being screwed over all the time makes me feel worse.

Today I felt suicidal. No joke.

My sister was too last weekend. She is struggling too. We can help and support though. That's what I like about our sibling-hood.

But atm my personal battle is weighing me down greatly.

I have really just had enough. I can't promise that I won't go to the psych ward tomorrow if I leave like usual for work.



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[Jynx]

Hey @MDT 

It sounds like you're struggling a bit at the moment, glad you're reaching out to talk about these feelings. I'm going to drop you an email just to check in. 

[TAB]

See how you feel tomorrow maybe @MDT

[Former-Member]

Oh okay, I was going to suggest if you had a number for his office or him or something you could try and call, but that's up to you, I understand. Either way I hope you can make an appointment.

I'm sorry you're struggling, I feel bad because I don't know what to say and do but I do care and I am here for you and others. @MDT 

[Shaz51]

ohhh @MDT 

are you home 

can you do some selfcare for you this afternoon 

play your pc games 

sitting with you and listening