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[Sophia1]

Thank you this is my third attempt to write something @Anastasia 

I am not in a good way at the moment and my replies are too dark.

take care as I know you are also going through a difficult time at the moment.

He is still there, on a different journey at present.

He knows that you love and support him alwlays.

@outlander @Adge @TAB @Emelia8 @Exoplanet thinking of you all and thanking you

@Historylover @AussieRecharger @saltandpepper 

I want to reply just not in a good space at the moment.

I will search for your posts when have a clearer head.

@soppykat 

hope that you are managing.

there is a talk on tuesday night about working and mental health, 8th June.

I thought of you.

@Former-Member could you please direct soppykat if she so wishes to the upcoming talk.

Thank you.

💛💚💜

[TAB]

Nice post . Thanks for the tag @Sophia1 😸 hope things get better for you soon

[Anastasia]

@Sophia1 

[outlander]

@Sophia1 im here

[Sophia1]

hello @Anastasia 

sounds very wise and philosophical............

something that I struggle with on a daily basis though............

I think that if you start off in life as in a young child that way it becomes a part of who you are.

Hope that your situation is manageable and that you have enough support for all of you.

love Sophia xx

[Sophia1]

How are you @outlander ?

It must be years since we have spoken...

I feel sad that I have not been well enough to talk to you and others with whom I engaged so often.

Tell me about you 💜

[outlander]

its ok @Sophia1 sometimes life just gets in the way. sometimes its to hard to be here with alot going on.

do you want to talk about anything?

im plodding along. trying to get through the best i can with so mny tests and new diagnoses lately as well.

[Sophia1]

Thank you @outlander @HenryX @Emelia8 @Anastasia 

for your support.

I now feel like a hamster on the everturning wheel.

Questioning myself about why I even bother to write about my feelings.

This always ends up in my self-loathing myself. Past programming.

If this was someone else writing these words, I would be offering a compassionate response. Suggesting that they not be so hard on themselves. If we are trying, that is what life is about really.

Yet when it comes to me who has ingrained in her that she is so difficult and different, applying the above is nigh impossible. 

I do try to tell myself and on many occasions feel worse as I realise what I am doing. Seriously, I know that I am applying empathy to myself that I give to others.

Therefore, not spontaneous, thought out, just not the same.

[HenryX]

Hello @Sophia1 , @outlander , @Anastasia , @Emelia8 

Thank you Sophia1 for your reference and tag on the "Worry Room ...." thread.

I had seen a reference to tonight's chat by @MDT earlier this evening, but thought that it might have been a mix-up Tues<>Thur. However It seems that my assumption was incorrect. Like you, I may have found it by chance, but there was no title that I could see. And I had other things on my mind.

I would be happy to see if I can work out what that "Authentication Ticket ...."problem might be if no-one else offers a satisfactory solution.

It is frustrating when we want to join a specific chat and cannot access the session. So I do understand your aggravation.

Best Wishes

HenryX

[outlander]

@Sophia1 it can be really hard to show ourselves the same empathy and compassion that we show others or when we do show ourselves this care it doesnt feel the same. it can be a weird feeling i find.